happy birthday to me

I turn 25 today. Birthdays have never been a very big deal to me. Ok some are cool, 16,18 and 21 come to mind, but generally I couldn't care less about birthdays. Everyone has one, it's nothing special, if someone didn't have a birthday, that would be something unique. At the same time it's a little depressing. Just like every birthday before it I woke up alone with no idea where my life is heading. Or worse yet it's not heading anywhere, my engine is running there's air in the tires but my transmission is shot, I try to get in gear and things just grind, I don't even care if its a forward gear anymore, reversing back to college would be better than sitting in neutral. I'm attempting to get into the dating world, that's also been depressing. I met one girl, she was insane. I met another she was a bit odd sorta attractive but I blew it with her once her psycho but more attractive friend flew into view, only to find out she had a boyfriend. Oh there's also tall crazy somewhat of an alky girl I know but I never even really attempted at that. There's also the cute redhead who works way to much and I never get to see, I'm Irish so I've got a soft spot for reds. Then theres the very quiet girl, I need to call her because there's no way she's going to take the initiative to call me, she's either more shy or just more awkward than I am. I'd like to say that she's cool but I've just never gotten her to say enough words to know either way. And then their is the depressing fact that I'm on this depressing journey because I found the one I've been looking for, I found her and she was everything I could ask for and more, she was perfect with one death-blow of a problem, she's not available. So happy birthday to me.

Oh seeing as that was an entirely uplifting piece I should point out that life's not all bad, when I walked to my truck this morning there were balloons tied to it. Still not sure who did that. I've got three cards, both sets of grandparents (yes I have all four) and my aunt's handmade card, and I got a call at midnight last night from my sister so she could be the first to say happy birthday. Then at work today I get three more cards and some co-workers want to take me to lunch but they won't tell me where and they don't want my best friend to come because they don't think he would appreciate it. Admittedly they have a bit skewed idea of what he would and would not appreciate but I'm still very confused. Tonight I'm going to see my parents, so yeah I have an amazing family, I work in the greatest office ever and really things are pretty decent. But if I'm still working here and still single next year I will go absolutely insane. So again happy birthday to me. And here's a song by The Vandals called Happy birthday to me.