I suck at life. I'm a smart guy I can do almost anything if I really want to, unfortunately I've never been much of one for trying very hard at anything. The one thing I absolutely suck at not matter how much I try is women. As everyone has pointed out I think way way too hard instead of just letting things flow. One of my problems before was I'd flirt with a girl and they would have no idea, that drove me nuts. Other times I've gone the opposite direction and as soon as I'm interested I just tell them straight out. This hasn't been anymore effective.
So yeah I fucked things up with the new girl. I took option two this time. I do believe it was the king of rock who said, "only fools rush in." Guess I'm a fool. I also failed to fully account for the stress of starting a new job and everything that goes along with that, not the opportune time to try to make a move. If I was better at this I'd have been serious about trying to be her friend first, just be the co-worker buddy then see where things went. Actually I think I did attempt that, but I can't hid shit, my true intentions were clearly visible and so she read the book I leave around called my heart and she said, whoa buddy backdafuckup. I can't really be mad at her for that, but I can be mad at myself. the only thing that genuinely annoys me about her reaction is that she goes out of her way to avoid so much as eye contact with me. This is a person who has to deal with some fucked up people, and put on a smile and treat them like gold, but to me she won't speak or even look at me, what the fuck did I do that was so terrible? Oh well, hopeful this shit blows over, who knows maybe we can even salvage a friendship out of the whole deal. Life was easier when I had given up on women, I can't decide if it was better, probably not, but man it was easier.