Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Fuck Martin Luther King (weekend)

Not because of anything with the great MLK, I just had a shitty weekend. I royally fucked things up with the girl I've been chasing since Thanksgiving. Shes a great person and we got along really well. We were clearly just friends but I wanted to make it clear that I was aiming for something more. I was pretty damn sure that I had made that apparent right from the start. I mean shit she was hanging out with my friend who knew I was curious about her, so with her permission he gave me her number, one minute later I was on the phone with her. Usually that doesn't imply "hey I'm just looking for a friend" but apparently thats all she wanted. I knew that was a possibility so I tried to find out if more than friends was an option. Honestly I was expecting a maybe. I was not expecting to get berated for treating her like an object because I dared to ask how I could win her over. This should be put into context of being very not-sober lying foot to face on a couch semi-awake. I was so off balance from that response (and insobriety) that my attempts to clarify only worked in the sense of digging your way out of a whole. In the morning nothing was made any better, but at least I had stuff to do that day. So I got ready went to the truck and... the starter died. That was just the perfect little extra kick in the nuts I really needed.

15 comments:

Justin [Blog4Brains] said...

Damn bro, you're just are not vibbin' with the ladies lately, are you? It sounds like you need some serious player training or something. ;)

Anyways, I am sorry to hear about your woman problems, I too used to be the one to that always ended up being the friend with no chance of the romance. It sucked! That is until I realized that woman are fucking crazy and are taught to perceive relationships completely opposite to logic and rationality.

Then the skies opened up. Well, not really, but it did help. Take care bro. :)

Kilgore Trout said...

Yeah unfortunately it seems like every woman is insane in her own unique way. If the insanity was more standardized then we might have a chance at breaking the code, but as things are now, I don't think its possible to understand them.

Hmm... I think I figured out my problem. I was just starting to think that I understood this girl, she was cool and she didn't seem to get into the typical female drama. I started to think that maybe she was rational, that was the fatal mistake, whatever you do, whatever you think, never ever ever assume you know what a woman is thinking, because you're wrong.

Rob the Granola Guy said...

After two divorces and one final attempt at marriage, I can confidently say that you might as well stop trying to figure out women now.

One thing I've noticed with your past relationships is that you seem to expect (hope) a lot will happen with the latest flame. Expectation is resentment waiting to happen.

Expect nothing, and you'll be pleasantly surprised when something happens. The best things in my life have come when I haven't been looking for, or expecting them.

Let me see...any more inane catch phrases? Nope. Think I'm done for the day.

Good Luck Kilgore.

Kilgore Trout said...

You hit the nail on the head with that one. Is that a good enough inane catch phrase?

You're right, now I just need to figure out how to stop having expectations or hopes or dreams. I have a mind thats always racing and if there is a lady in the picture, no matter how insignificantly, then my mind will study every action, pouring over every syllable in order to try to convince myself they are interested. It sucks and I don't no how to shut it off.

ugh...

Thanks for the advice guys. I can't help but laugh at the fact that on lunch I watched Married With Children, the episode when Al turned No Ma'am into a church. Just seems fitting somehow.

Rob the Granola Guy said...

I just heard a song... "More Than a Friend" by the band All Too Much from the Weeds soundtrack. It's perfect for you!

Carrie said...

Hang in there, Kilgore. You seem to be a nice guy, and at some point, you'll meet some nice girl who wonders how she managed to find the last nice single guy.

As for insanity, yeah. We're all insane. But then, so are the guys. The key to relationship success is in figuring out what insanity you can live with and what's a dealbreaker. And there's my inane catch phrase of the day.

Kilgore Trout said...

Unfortunately I have so little actual relationship experience that I have no idea what would be a dealbreaker. Right now the only real dealbreaker is unwilling, assuming they interest me in the first place. But beyond that I have no idea what would just drive me insane.

Thanks for the encouragement.

Peace

Stephanie said...

Okay so I was looking on your myspace today and came across your blog. I am not happy about being written about in your blog, but if you want to then it's all up to you buddy.
Here's the reason why i got so mad. First off i had eaten shrooms a while earlier. That really isn't a good time to tell anyone anything. Secondly I told your friend that you apparently get your information from that i did not want to be in a relationship. I told him all i wanted was more friends. Expect to hear about this from him because i am bringing it up with him. What you guys did was not fair to me, and also you. Thirdly I am twenty years old and have been in two abusive realtionships. I've been hit in the face by guys. I've been cut off from all friends and family by guys. I have been pretty much owned by guys who i have had to have their permission before doing anything or else i'd be in for alot more pain.
Would that make you want to date? I don't think so. SO maybe you should walk a mile in someone else's shoes before you judge them.
I agree with the guy who said not to expect anything. When it comes to people, you don't really know them until you have been friends with them for years. So instead of building up an idea of how you want things in your head maybe you should just let things happen.

my battery is dying so i've got to stop now. but there's more if you want to hear it. Obviously be telling you this to your face/on our emails isn't helping so maybe posting it on your blog will.
have a nice day

Kilgore Trout said...

In case you missed it that was the girl this was about.

Shes not terribly happy with me right now but I swear shes a very nice person, even if she doesn't like me.

So it goes...

Stephanie said...

dude i never said i didn't like you. I'm just a little unhappy with the situation and now i feel like i have to defend myself.

Kilgore Trout said...

We've both gotten defensive.

Anonymous said...

damn nigger your shit is wack...AND MY FRIEND SAID HEY =) I LOVE YOU BOOSKY LOVE YOUR MAMAA AND YOUR CRAZY GRANNY

Kilgore Trout said...

Um, thanks for the comment. I'm not sure who your friend is because I don't know who you are but in the future I'd appreciate it if you refrain from dropping the N-bomb, I don't like that word.

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